Kosmic Fusion Soul Memoirs

Behind The Mask Through the course of my time with Kosmic Fusion Sree Maa Shri Ji played many roles. In 2016 everyone was asked to reveal who they were and during this phase the need to be authentic and be in utmost integrity was very important so that we could all experience transformation at a higher level. One of the exercises that i did together with Sree Maa was called voice dialogue which helped to bring forward the disowned parts of the self or ego. Sree Maa lovingly supported me out of utmost Compassion to guide me through an exercise. During these exercises Sree Maa and i were in dialogue to assist me to transform the Narcissistic parts of the personality that were blocking the True Self from blossoming. It was always about Transformation and Awakening. For the Soul to take the front seat it was paramount that the ego self was explored and quietened. Sree Maa was able to help me to breakthrough the shades of Narcissism that i was hiding. I will forever be G

The founding principle of Kosmic Fusion was to be the non-doer, eventually i began to volunteer for events and expos and in 2014 Sree Maa Shri Ji stopped travelling to events and were energetically present at all events. Unfortunately due to some of the volunteers thinking that they were now "in charge" of the events, things began to unfold in a very toxic way. In the group there were several members with  narcissist traits, that's when the havoc began. As we know narcissists love to create chaos and havoc with their many tactics of flying monkeys, devaluing, blaming others, anger and retaliation. They literally suck energy from others around them and Enjoy causing pain confusion and distress to others. Little did i know that i was about to be the next target of a narcissist and began a long journey of being set up as another victim who was going to be used abused and discarded. Below is a really great article on the Cycle of Narccissm idealize-devalue-discard

Gaslighting by the Narc In this blog I would like to highlight one of the exercises done in the F.i.T. program.  This exercise was set as a Bonding exercise among the Sydney Team who were at the time having issues communicating. Some of the F.i.T.s came up with this activity to do at the retreat so that we could iron out any issues that existed within the team.  The exercise was emailed to us and outlined below: Jai Shree Swaminarayan _/\_ Dear Komal, Hanuman, Mala, Jwala and Simran In preparation for the upcoming reunion, there is a small exercise that we would like all Sydney Fits to participate in. Each one will write observations about the other 4. For example, Komal will write about what she has observed about Hanuman, Mala, Jwala and Simran. Similarly, everyone will write observations about the other 4. Remember, refrain from drawing judgements or giving opinions/feedback as then the small self is at play, but to really sit in Bhakti Bhaav and let the observati

In honor of my most Beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji Seven years ago I met my wonderful and most Beloved Guru Sree Maa Shri Ji, and so my journey began. Unity was something that I thought I would find with a group of like minded individuals. How wrong I was to think that the very group I was drawn to would attract many other seekers like me meaning the good, the bad and ....the ugly. What unfolded from that point was a profound journey of healing and transformation from my old self to my new SELF. Transformation can come in many packages, small, medium large and Beyond Beyond. Sree Maa Shri Ji fit in the last category - Beyond anything I had experienced before. Like many who have walked a so called "spiritual" path before my journey unfolded exponentially. On the outside it seemed that nothing had changed, but on the inside a much deeper transformation was unfolding for me....

There's an old English saying that used to get thrown around in the playground which is very fitting to illustrate what Irene and Dallia brought to the FiT program. Sticks and Stones Will Break My Bones but Names Will Never Hurt Me! If you have been following my story as a volunteer in Kosmic Fusion, these two so called "spiritual" people created such a strong false image among the volunteers that people actually thought that they were good and kind people. The real story was that they continually sabotaged Sree Maa Shri Ji and the volunteers by using their finely honed tactics of, smearing the very one's that were helping them deal with the very real issue of ego. What was revealed through this process was that we were dealing with two very real narcissists. For those of you that know Sree Maa, a truly fearless teacher of the Absolute Truth, Dallia/Iphenigie and  Irene/Joy Awakening (as she calls herself now)  were able to twist everything so that they looked li